As I mentioned in my last post, I have been kind of Blah this week. Unmotivated and tired. Not physically tired. Not really sleepy. Just mentally tired from the toll of work, kids, commute, no downtime. It is exhausting. Yesterday, I skipped my run just because I didn’t feel like going. I treated myself to a trip to the mall during lunch instead. It was wonderful to spend an hour window shopping and it was very motivating. I want to wear pretty clothes again!
Today, I was feeling the same apathy towards my planned run. I was looking for excuses. Maybe it’s raining. No. Meeting? There were no excuses, the weather was perfect and I just needed to do it. I made a deal with myself that I could walk if I did 10 minutes and still wasn’t feeling it. Walking is better than sitting on my butt. So I read a few posts in my favorite running blogs. Looked at my motivating pictures. Changed into my running clothes and got down to it.
The first half mile sucked as much as I thought it would. I started out uphill and just felt so tired. The next 5 minutes got better and I knew that I could do this run. They might be slow and uninspired but I would get my 3 miles in, but it was still sucking. The next 10 minutes got a little better and little better. Then I had to quicken my pace a little in a crosswalk to get out of the way of a truck and I realized that pace felt good and that miracle of miracles, I felt good. I decided to keep up the quicker pace for as long as it felt good and wouldn’t you know, it felt good all the way back to my finish point.
I’m so glad that I made myself get out there. I feel so much better this afternoon for having gone. I feel much more eager to run tomorrow and do my monthly 5K assessment. The cure for not wanting to run is running.
fat mom gets fit 